I want neither a terrorist spirituality that keeps me in a perpetual state of fright about being in right relationship with my heavenly Father nor a sappy spirituality that portrays God as such a benign teddy bear that there is no aberrant behavior or desire of mine that he will not condone. I want a relationship with the Abba of Jesus, who is infinitely compassionate with my brokenness and at the same time an awesome, incomprehensible, and unwieldy Mystery.

Brennan Manning, Ruthless Trust

peder & annie's baby

pregnancy due date

04 November 2007

When He Hides

I recently wrote on my main blog of the darkness through which I walk right now. Though I cannot see down the length of the path down which our Lord leads me, I must trust His leading and trust that this is all from His goodness. I must see my circumstances in light of of Him, not the other way around.

A friend sent Psalm 13 my way. I share it here. I love the way The Message puts this psalm, especially the last line.

Have your way with me, Lord. I trust in you and your goodness.


Psalm 13
of David

Long enough, God— you've ignored me long enough. I've looked at the back of your head long enough. Long enough I've carried this ton of trouble, lived with a stomach full of pain. Long enough my arrogant enemies have looked down their noses at me.

Take a good look at me, God, my God; I want to look life in the eye, So no enemy can get the best of me or laugh when I fall on my face.

I've thrown myself headlong into your arms— I'm celebrating your rescue. I'm singing at the top of my lungs, I'm so full of answered prayers.